MIXED FEELINGS

Only I know what I m going through now.
M feeling too lonely, lost, depressed
& constantly under some stress.
Can anyone please tell me to overcome this how?

The Pain is so severe, as if something inside me is broken.
My heart is bleeding, bleeding in that pain,
But why? What’s the reason?

I can’t stop the tears;
they are rolling down my cheeks, hot and salty.
It feels as if a volcano is erupting in me, which was silent from years.

Every night I feel it’ll be okay in the morning,
There won’t be any weird feelings,
There won’t be any pain,
But at the end it’s all same again.

Suddenly the place of anger is overtaken by tension and stress,
I hope this all will come to rest.

But for now m not at all good, I want to run away, Run away so far, that no one will get my way.

I want to be alone for sometime
so that I can figure out what’s wrong with me.

M trying to be normal as much as I can,
Controlling the tears and handling the situation,
Waiting...
 so that I can finally make a correct decision.

Whatever happens, always happens for a reason,
Everything will be fine soon,
feelings are after-all just like seasons.